Christmas Eve
This isn't exactly how I thought my christmas eve would be... totally boring. I am home reformatting my pc, my brother is asleep and my sister is in QC. What a family. So much for sticking together. And right now, I'm hearing my neighbors sing. What's bad is that they are singing the songs that we would sing when we were in dubai. I loved christmas in dubai. I had family there. Not only blood related but the people who were my parents borders. They treated me as if I was their own daughter. I miss dubai. Not because of the place but because there I was welcomed and cared for. By other people.
Christmas now in 2005 is so lonely. I mean, how lonely can this get. Home in front of a pc. I actually feel sad this christmas. I don't even feel the spirit of Christmas now. If this is how I am now, what more when its new years day?
I spent the whole day watching series of Friends. Season 5 and currently on season 6. I feel as if they are my family.Damn, this is pathetic! My whole life is based on tv series. And on a christmas eve, what am I doing?Typing down an entry for my blog while my bro is asleep and my other friends are having the time of their life with their family. I guess it isnt like before when Christmas would mean a lot of things and there would be so many gatherings. As we get older, we receive lesser gifts, eat a little less and share joy less.
this whole job thing is kinda getting boring. I went over to yass earlier and we talked about my employment status. She was right when waiting meant loosing interest to work for them in the first place. I am wasting my time with them all for the sake of the opportunity to work for a well known company. Damn!Being unemployed does not give any benefits. It's actually ruining me because now when I wake up, I automatically open my pc and connect to the net and sit there for hours. I honestly don't know what I do when I'm online. I just sit and listen to music.
You think during christmas season they would be singing christmas carols but no, they sing the non stop "Pinoy ako!".Goodness!!!It's the new christmas carol. I mean, yeah the song is great cause it talks about being proud of your nationality but hello??To turn it into a christmas carol??Are you nuts?no wonder I don't have the spirit of christmas. And now again,my neighbor is singing "Love moves in mysterious ways".Take note, this isn't the kareoke thing where you follow the lyrics. They actually play it with the electric guitar and they make it sound as if they are on concert. Uh!I rarely go out of my house so no wonder my neighbors don't know me. They only see me leaving my house in the morning and coming home late at night.
This is such a Christmas,spending it in front of a tv with a sleeping brother, a sore cold in my mouth, the smelly beds of my hamsters(I just cleaned it yesterday!) and the nonstop barking of my dogs. Oh well, might as well enjoy watching friends instead.
My mom still has no idea nor my brother that I'm moving out of the house as soon as I can. My mom won't approve of it because she's worried about my brother being left alone in the house and having no one to accompany him. If only she knew, with me existing here, it wouldn't make any difference to him whether I was here or now. Yeah, we live in the same house, under the same roof but hey, we have our own lives to live. Like now for instance, he's snoring away and I just found out he's spending Christmas with his girlfriend. How sweet of my brother right?I'm telling you mom, it wouldn't matter if I left.
But on the plus side, I don't want to leave. I guess I pity my brother for some reason. Which I know I shouldn't after what he does to me but I guess it's natural cause he's family and he's pretty much what I have here.
Merry Christmas my dear readers.. sorry for boring you with a life less ordinary..
Christmas now in 2005 is so lonely. I mean, how lonely can this get. Home in front of a pc. I actually feel sad this christmas. I don't even feel the spirit of Christmas now. If this is how I am now, what more when its new years day?
I spent the whole day watching series of Friends. Season 5 and currently on season 6. I feel as if they are my family.Damn, this is pathetic! My whole life is based on tv series. And on a christmas eve, what am I doing?Typing down an entry for my blog while my bro is asleep and my other friends are having the time of their life with their family. I guess it isnt like before when Christmas would mean a lot of things and there would be so many gatherings. As we get older, we receive lesser gifts, eat a little less and share joy less.
this whole job thing is kinda getting boring. I went over to yass earlier and we talked about my employment status. She was right when waiting meant loosing interest to work for them in the first place. I am wasting my time with them all for the sake of the opportunity to work for a well known company. Damn!Being unemployed does not give any benefits. It's actually ruining me because now when I wake up, I automatically open my pc and connect to the net and sit there for hours. I honestly don't know what I do when I'm online. I just sit and listen to music.
You think during christmas season they would be singing christmas carols but no, they sing the non stop "Pinoy ako!".Goodness!!!It's the new christmas carol. I mean, yeah the song is great cause it talks about being proud of your nationality but hello??To turn it into a christmas carol??Are you nuts?no wonder I don't have the spirit of christmas. And now again,my neighbor is singing "Love moves in mysterious ways".Take note, this isn't the kareoke thing where you follow the lyrics. They actually play it with the electric guitar and they make it sound as if they are on concert. Uh!I rarely go out of my house so no wonder my neighbors don't know me. They only see me leaving my house in the morning and coming home late at night.
This is such a Christmas,spending it in front of a tv with a sleeping brother, a sore cold in my mouth, the smelly beds of my hamsters(I just cleaned it yesterday!) and the nonstop barking of my dogs. Oh well, might as well enjoy watching friends instead.
My mom still has no idea nor my brother that I'm moving out of the house as soon as I can. My mom won't approve of it because she's worried about my brother being left alone in the house and having no one to accompany him. If only she knew, with me existing here, it wouldn't make any difference to him whether I was here or now. Yeah, we live in the same house, under the same roof but hey, we have our own lives to live. Like now for instance, he's snoring away and I just found out he's spending Christmas with his girlfriend. How sweet of my brother right?I'm telling you mom, it wouldn't matter if I left.
But on the plus side, I don't want to leave. I guess I pity my brother for some reason. Which I know I shouldn't after what he does to me but I guess it's natural cause he's family and he's pretty much what I have here.
Merry Christmas my dear readers.. sorry for boring you with a life less ordinary..
