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Friday, December 02, 2005 

please listen to what we are not saying

I dream to be in a place where I'm free. A place where people won't stop me from doing anything that i desire.

When I'm with people I pretend to be someone I'm not. Someone who's happy...someone who's free from all miseries. Free from all troubles in life. Free. But I am nothing but a pretender..

I hate persistent people. People who won't know when to stop.

I hate having to agree on others terms.

I'll be honest. I am a person who, when I say NO,I mean it. I love to hang out with my friends on my own terms. I love to fool around with them. I guess after getting my break broken..I turned away from those things..I found joy in hanging out with friends who really cared for me.

I wish I could disappear from where I am now. I wish I could just go away and move in to the future.


When I shout out, I wish to remove all anger
When I whisper, I wish to keep them back
When I cry, I remove my anger
When I become silent,I need to be alone

This is a piece of my speech choir

PLEASE LISTEN TO WHAT WE ARE NOT SAYING

Don't be fooled by us, don't be fooled by the face we wear,
for we wear a mask, we were a thousand mask, mask that we're afraid
to take off and none of them are us.

We give you the impression that we're secure,
that confidence is our name, and coolness is our game
that the water is calm and we're in command
and that we need no one
but don't believe us please.

Our surface may seem smooth beneath
We dwell in confusion, in fear in aloneness
But we hide this
We panic at the thought of our weakness and
fear of being exposed.
That's why we frantically create a mood to hide
behind a non-chalant sophisticated facade, to sheild us from
the glance that knows but such a glance
are our salvation and we know it.

It's the only thing that can assure us of
acceptance and love,we're afraid that
You'll think less of us and that you'll laugh
Laugh will kill us.


So we play our game, our desperate
pretending game with a facade of an assurance
without and a tremling child within
and so our lives became a front we nearly
chatter to you in a suave surface tone

We tell you everything that is nothing and
nothing of what is everything or whats crying within me.
So when we go into our routine do not
be fooled by what we are saying. Please
Listen carefully to hear what we are not saying

We dislike the superficial phony game we're playing

We like to be genuine and spontaneous and us
you've got to hold out your hand when
it seems to be the last thing I seem to want or need

Only you can call me to aliveness
each time you try to understand
because you really care.

Our hearts begin to grow with very feable wings
we want you to know how important you are to us
and how you can be the creator of the person that is us if you choose to.

But it will not be easy for you a long
conviction of worthless builds strong walls
and there lies in our hopes

Who are we, you may wonder. We are someone
you know very well, we are every man and woman you meet


good night aki...kachat kita ngayon eh..hehe