What runs in my thoughts
I had a hard time sleeping last night. I was in bed by 130am but at 4am I was still up. I had the urge to get up from my bed and write an entry but then I realized that it was morning and what would people think of me awake at that hour.As always,they would say that I didn't sleep. They would bug me about getting rest and all. I know people don't mean any harm in reminding mr or noticing things that I do but I got used to not being noticed. I mean, I lived my college life dong what I wanted and people could care less of what I did. I was never bothered if I was up at 3am or that I was eating outside at 3am. Things like that didn't bother anyone before. But now that I live back home, I don't get the priviledge I used to. The other day my ever so dear brother thought it was nice to raise his voice to me again over something I didn't do. As always, he finds ways to make my life miserable. But stupid as it may sound, I have a soft heart for him. Despite the fact that he humiliated me in front of everyone. Brothers will always be brothers. As my friend said. It's hard to raise a brother.
Being a bum at home does not give me any benefits. First of all, I'm asleep at daylight and come out past afternoon. So much for being productive. I love to sleep in especially on rainy days.
Ever had that feeling where you want to succeed in something?You want to be good at something?Well, I feel that every day.It's as if I want to be able to be someone around the house. Not just the only teenage or adult girl living in the house. I want to be able to show people that I can be someone. But unfortunately,I will always be the youngest in the house who will be known as the irresponsible one, the one who always messes up. The first thing my bro said to my sis when she arrived.."Her?still the same..ogag pa rin"..Sweet right?My own brother thinks less of me. Man, that does feel good. (sarcastically speaking)
It's bad when people really judge you for their mistakes. It really sticks in you. I realized that I'm gonna have a hard time here. So I better make haste and move out soon. But I still have a soft heart for my family though they treat me like a piece of....
We just recently applied for an unlimited on the internet and that was actually not good. Now I'm constantly online.A good thing that I moved the pc to the living room otherwise I would never get some sleep.
Fiesta is a day away and thats the day I'm pigging out at my bestfriends pad..hehe
ricardo: putanginang buraot! yung mga nagsesend ng "cursed" msg na pag di daw pinasa, mamamatay minamahal kong ina, KAGAGUHAY YUN punyeta kayo! wag kayo maniwala sa chain mail/msg! pass this to everybody on your list, kung hindi matatae kayo ng 10 beses sa isang araw for the next 2 years (ako naman ang buraot ngayon).
just got this off my bestfriend aki..I totally agree with him except for the part where you are suppose to send it...haller?I miss him badly. He is going through alot.Pretty much what I went through except he is the guy.hehe
I miss all my barkada peepz..I never get to see them as much as I used to. They all have work. It's kinda weird when you start hearing them talk about work. It makes you feel like an outcast.I guess it's normal coz you can't relate in the first place. Speaking of work, I have been thinking of moving to another country as well. Maybe in australia.where my cousins are.But moving away to another country would be running away from my past which isn't the right thing to do.
I miss being me.
"hark the herald angels sing"
I am listening to christmas carols. It's always around these times when I would listen to christmas carols with my parents. And once again, I'm having a lonely christmas.
Being a bum at home does not give me any benefits. First of all, I'm asleep at daylight and come out past afternoon. So much for being productive. I love to sleep in especially on rainy days.
Ever had that feeling where you want to succeed in something?You want to be good at something?Well, I feel that every day.It's as if I want to be able to be someone around the house. Not just the only teenage or adult girl living in the house. I want to be able to show people that I can be someone. But unfortunately,I will always be the youngest in the house who will be known as the irresponsible one, the one who always messes up. The first thing my bro said to my sis when she arrived.."Her?still the same..ogag pa rin"..Sweet right?My own brother thinks less of me. Man, that does feel good. (sarcastically speaking)
It's bad when people really judge you for their mistakes. It really sticks in you. I realized that I'm gonna have a hard time here. So I better make haste and move out soon. But I still have a soft heart for my family though they treat me like a piece of....
We just recently applied for an unlimited on the internet and that was actually not good. Now I'm constantly online.A good thing that I moved the pc to the living room otherwise I would never get some sleep.
Fiesta is a day away and thats the day I'm pigging out at my bestfriends pad..hehe
ricardo: putanginang buraot! yung mga nagsesend ng "cursed" msg na pag di daw pinasa, mamamatay minamahal kong ina, KAGAGUHAY YUN punyeta kayo! wag kayo maniwala sa chain mail/msg! pass this to everybody on your list, kung hindi matatae kayo ng 10 beses sa isang araw for the next 2 years (ako naman ang buraot ngayon).
just got this off my bestfriend aki..I totally agree with him except for the part where you are suppose to send it...haller?I miss him badly. He is going through alot.Pretty much what I went through except he is the guy.hehe
I miss all my barkada peepz..I never get to see them as much as I used to. They all have work. It's kinda weird when you start hearing them talk about work. It makes you feel like an outcast.I guess it's normal coz you can't relate in the first place. Speaking of work, I have been thinking of moving to another country as well. Maybe in australia.where my cousins are.But moving away to another country would be running away from my past which isn't the right thing to do.
I miss being me.
"hark the herald angels sing"
I am listening to christmas carols. It's always around these times when I would listen to christmas carols with my parents. And once again, I'm having a lonely christmas.
